That song’s actually a gift from Windy. She was, without a doubt, among the three most influential people in my life. If I remember correctly, one of her “friends” played it for her while she was actively looking into ways to escape from an abusive relationship that had badly damaged her inner being and that she couldn’t find a way out of. Here’s how it got to be today’s selection.
The last two years have been change after change after change and although I’m exhausted by all those transitions, it doesn’t seem like this crazy train is slowing down any time soon. Some of the decisions I need to make are hard, at best, to figure out, in the best of times and this isn’t one of them. Add to that the fact that none of the destinations this could lead me to would bring me any closer to what’s truly meaningful for me adds an extra layer to the complexity of this situation. It feels like I’m drawing a path that can’t reach its destination and that’s missing steps, it’s incredibly frustrating, I feel exhausted and I feel like I need a very long rest… But voices inside me insist I’ve rested long enough already… Way too much, over the years, to be honest… So I thought I’d gather some more insight on “Who Am I?” in order to reduce the scope of the infinite possibilities in front of me.
While assessing myself on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, I found that I’m likely an INFP or an INFJ. Out of the 4 tests I did, I always ended up as an INFP, with a judging/prospecting axis in the 50–60% range. But I closely relate to both descriptions. My feeling is that I’m likely one of the 2, but some of my more natural tendencies have adapted over the years to more easily fit what I needed to do or to be. Since I’m often oblivious to how I feel and really poor at keeping track of the flow of time, it's quite possible I've lost track of those changes. *laughing*
Anyhow, comes Windy to the rescue. No matter how many years pass by, every single person who ever had a place in my heart remains important. She’s no exceptions. So in that indecision, I couldn’t help but wonder how a person who’s made such a beautiful mess of my life, time and time over, would be graded. Not in a mean or judgmental manner, but I figured that knowing where my nemesis lies might help me figure out which path is more in line with my inner nature. (I say this in a really caring and playful manner, for if I didn’t care, I wouldn’t make room for her. I can’t really consider her a friend after what she did, but there’s no way my inner self would allow a life where she’s no longer important to me, that position was available, so here we go. I couldn’t have dreamt of a better nemesis, to be honest.) Anyhow, as much as I hate uncertainty, I guess I’ll have to accept that this is as close as I can get to an answer, this weekend. There’s so much more on my to-do list.
For those who might be interested in doing theirs, here are a few resources. I’d strongly suggest not to take them at face value, for they come with a rather high degree of uncertainty, but they’re still a good enough starting point if you’re in a bind and need, for some reason, to define a bit more who you are. And in all cases, they’ll still make you feel like you’re moving forward, if only a little, which can be a luxury, when you feel stuck.
That song’s actually a gift from Windy. She was, without a doubt, among the three most influential people in my life. If I remember correctly, one of her “friends” played it for her while she was actively looking into ways to escape from an abusive relationship that had badly damaged her inner being and that she couldn’t find a way out of. Here’s how it got to be today’s selection.
The last two years have been change after change after change and although I’m exhausted by all those transitions, it doesn’t seem like this crazy train is slowing down any time soon. Some of the decisions I need to make are hard, at best, to figure out, in the best of times and this isn’t one of them. Add to that the fact that none of the destinations this could lead me to would bring me any closer to what’s truly meaningful for me adds an extra layer to the complexity of this situation. It feels like I’m drawing a path that can’t reach its destination and that’s missing steps, it’s incredibly frustrating, I feel exhausted and I feel like I need a very long rest… But voices inside me insist I’ve rested long enough already… Way too much, over the years, to be honest… So I thought I’d gather some more insight on “Who Am I?” in order to reduce the scope of the infinite possibilities in front of me.
While assessing myself on the Myers-Briggs Type Indicator, I found that I’m likely an INFP or an INFJ. Out of the 4 tests I did, I always ended up as an INFP, with a judging/prospecting axis in the 50–60% range. But I closely relate to both descriptions. My feeling is that I’m likely one of the 2, but some of my more natural tendencies have adapted over the years to more easily fit what I needed to do or to be. Since I’m often oblivious to how I feel and really poor at keeping track of the flow of time, it's quite possible I've lost track of those changes. *laughing*
Anyhow, comes Windy to the rescue. No matter how many years pass by, every single person who ever had a place in my heart remains important. She’s no exceptions. So in that indecision, I couldn’t help but wonder how a person who’s made such a beautiful mess of my life, time and time over, would be graded. Not in a mean or judgmental manner, but I figured that knowing where my nemesis lies might help me figure out which path is more in line with my inner nature. (I say this in a really caring and playful manner, for if I didn’t care, I wouldn’t make room for her. I can’t really consider her a friend after what she did, but there’s no way my inner self would allow a life where she’s no longer important to me, that position was available, so here we go. I couldn’t have dreamt of a better nemesis, to be honest.) Anyhow, as much as I hate uncertainty, I guess I’ll have to accept that this is as close as I can get to an answer, this weekend. There’s so much more on my to-do list.
For those who might be interested in doing theirs, here are a few resources. I’d strongly suggest not to take them at face value, for they come with a rather high degree of uncertainty, but they’re still a good enough starting point if you’re in a bind and need, for some reason, to define a bit more who you are. And in all cases, they’ll still make you feel like you’re moving forward, if only a little, which can be a luxury, when you feel stuck.
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